I've always liked ellipsis'... I've always enjoyed using them in writing and text and generally in everything i do... some people think im a little odd for doing this... why cant i just use normal punctuation and i suppose i should shouldn't i? But i like the idea that things carry on... things don't end... i like the idea that, if you use ellipsis' as a substitute full stop, even the finished sentences are carrying on and opening things up a little... Ellipsis' don't stop, and i suppose neither does life, there have been many many times that i wish the world could have just stopped and i could have lived in that moment, but things don't stop do they and things change...which sucks... i know for me, at the minuet lots of friendship things are changing and as everyone is growing into people who are fit to be presented to the judge of the outside world, people change, some and a lot change into bitches... but some change into something you would never even expect. so yeah as i was saying things change and I've always been bad at accepting change, im still trying to convince myself that my best friend 2 years ago is still my best friend now... although that's stupid and i know she's not. so today i decided i needed to do something, i decided that I needed to change... ever so slightly...to attempt to be a little happier with life. So to start i wrote 2 lists. 2 lists that overpower each other in such a way that im not sure why they matter at all, but it seems they do:

If you cant quite see what it says, its a list of things im good at and things im bad at. Its trivial and stupid, and i must admit i refrained from getting to personal and emotional there. I bet your thinking what the hell does this matter weather a writer of some random blog likes who she is or not? well you see im not showing you who i am, and if you think i am then you better stop reading as your missing the point entirely. No, this wasn't to show you who i am, it was to attempt to show you who you are... which one would matter to you most? Because i can guarantee that after reading my lists, if i asked you to picture me, most of you would see a strangely tall girl with weird finger nails holding an upside down map with a confused expression while attempting to make a speech. am i right?? Because i don't think you would picture a girl with bright green eyes listing to music while writing a cookbook, would you?
Do you see now? there are aspects of us that need changing, but to see the good in ourselves we need to see the good in others too...

Now i know this is a bit random, but do you ever feel you need to speak your thoughts? well you see, this is my indirect way of telling people how im feeling, getting things off my chest... you have no idea who i really am ( probably) but it doesn't matter because its all about making other people think for me... so i hope i make you think... thank you for bothering to read this far by the way...